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Post by mskied on Sept 9, 2021 15:34:51 GMT -6
I was thinking it would be a good idea to put up a thread about the challenges we face, so that we all get to know that we are not alone in them.
I find it challenging to sit in the quiet of life after interacting with the voices for so long. I am constantly reminding myself to slow down and appreciate this silence, because the voices became too much.
What are your challenges?
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Post by ashima on Sept 10, 2021 3:08:55 GMT -6
eliminating some things I thought to be challenges. Makes for less stress.
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Post by Belteshazzar on Sept 13, 2021 13:03:23 GMT -6
I was thinking it would be a good idea to put up a thread about the challenges we face, so that we all get to know that we are not alone in them. I find it challenging to sit in the quiet of life after interacting with the voices for so long. I am constantly reminding myself to slow down and appreciate this silence, because the voices became too much. What are your challenges? You know, I was reading something the other day about schizophrenic people who become intensely religious because of all the visions they were having, voices they were hearing, and how when they started taking their meds, the visions all went away and they become depressed because they felt like they lost their purpose in life. So they stopped taking the meds and felt happier, even though they knew it was delusions. Not saying don't take your meds but it was just interesting. And your comment made me think of that. |
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Post by mskied on Sept 13, 2021 13:12:41 GMT -6
I was thinking it would be a good idea to put up a thread about the challenges we face, so that we all get to know that we are not alone in them. I find it challenging to sit in the quiet of life after interacting with the voices for so long. I am constantly reminding myself to slow down and appreciate this silence, because the voices became too much. What are your challenges? You know, I was reading something the other day about schizophrenic people who become intensely religious because of all the visions they were having, voices they were hearing, and how when they started taking their meds, the visions all went away and they become depressed because they felt like they lost their purpose in life. So they stopped taking the meds and felt happier, even though they knew it was delusions. Not saying don't take your meds but it was just interesting. And your comment made me think of that. I can relate to this. Ive thought about going off my medication, maybe I would be happier, but then I recall how the voices got the better of me, and how I did things that I normally wouldnt because of it. I do feel let down now that the voices have stopped, but the Hell I go through is enough to keep me on my meds. |
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Post by mskied on Oct 2, 2021 14:43:58 GMT -6
I wonder if anyone else has cried because they are alive. I havent felt like this since I was young and everything felt hopeless. Today I thought that I just wanted to die, and I think that often. I feel like Ive been alive too long. It passes though.
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Post by mskied on Oct 2, 2021 14:44:56 GMT -6
I have too little energy. Im not tired, Im not sore. I just havent got any will to live.
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Post by Odin on Oct 3, 2021 8:37:48 GMT -6
I have too little energy. Im not tired, Im not sore. I just havent got any will to live. Hang in there, buddy. Reminds me of people who jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge and survived. They say that the instant they jumped, suddenly they realized they wanted to live. They didn't want to die, they just wanted escape from their problems. It's a cliched phrase and not above criticism, but it is one that has always worked for me....and the phrase is - "Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems." I've got my own mental health issues...I don't take any medication (yet, hah) but I feel like probably half of my issues stem from my daily habits, routines, choices and if I just changed my environment by changing my behavior, things would probably be considerably better. Dramatically, even. Of course that's easier said than done, but, I'm working on it. Something as little as taking a walk, reading a book, cooking a good meal, attending a social event....those things can have a big impact. You're not alone, mskied. In fact, one thing that I really value about you is that you have given me a human face to mental illness/schizophrenia. A lot of people don't know people with that disease and it becomes a sort of taboo. Many don't understand it, and don't understand that people with that illness are people too and still valuable and contributing members of society. I'm grateful for knowing you and your participation here. We don't want to lose you. Just take it one day at a time. For all of the ugliness in the world, all of the hardships in life, there really is so much that is beautiful and worthwhile, too. |
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Post by mskied on Oct 3, 2021 10:42:08 GMT -6
Yes the word psychotic has a very negative meaning now, but really it just means that you suffer from hallucinations, not that you are going out killing people. Though I can say that my condition has the side effect of making me feel very violent, but its not something I pay attention to.
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Post by mskied on Oct 5, 2021 7:28:02 GMT -6
I keep telling myself "This is not a catastrophe" Im in crisis mode still, and I dont need to be. Im not hallucinating, Im not psychotic, but the panic is still there.
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Post by mskied on Oct 7, 2021 0:23:24 GMT -6
So to combat my condition, I have to sit in a centralized, meditative state. Its not as hard as you might think. I cant think and I have to be quiet mentally. At first it was a pain because there was pressure on my head that kept me low and depressed, but that went away, and now its almost pleasure to dismiss thought, and to sit in the center of my mind. Ive had to get accustomed to doing very little, but at least Im not hallucinating and psychotic.
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Post by mskied on Oct 15, 2021 10:17:31 GMT -6
Im not depressed now, and its sort of hard to be this way. There is a certain comfort in despair and pain.
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