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Post by Odin on Nov 17, 2021 7:06:15 GMT -6
I dont really believe in magic anymore Hmm...so I'm taking it you have not had an exorcism done? There's more than one faith or spiritual practice that can make the attempt, I'm sure you know. And while I'm LDS and I have my own particular religious beliefs on the matter, I believe concentrated faith and effort by any individual can work miracles. If you truly feel you were possessed, I don't think that's something to take lightly. Sure, we could chalk it up to the schizophrenia and hallucinations, that would be very easy to do. But you know that sometimes, there may be a crossover between mental illness and possession, or some kind of demonic affliction. As in they may not always be the same thing, but one may perhaps play a role in triggering the other. You say you no longer believe in magic but do you believe in God? For me, God and magic are all the same, really. Anyway, just a thought. It sounds like you've been exhausting all other options except this one? I just want to help and see you feel better. But I'll let you judge. |
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Post by mskied on Nov 17, 2021 13:42:01 GMT -6
God may be able to perform miracles, but I dont have much faith in mankind doing so. Only God can cure me.
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Post by ashima on Nov 18, 2021 4:11:01 GMT -6
Magic is an energy, not a trick.
Forced fake magic is a crock of shit.
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Post by primordialintent on Nov 18, 2021 13:35:56 GMT -6
God may be able to perform miracles, but I dont have much faith in mankind doing so. Only God can cure me. It's all kind of the same tho, isn't it? I mean, a miracle is a miracle... |
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Post by ashima on Nov 19, 2021 5:04:34 GMT -6
Mskied may need to have a miracle or 2 happen to restore his faith
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Post by mskied on Nov 23, 2021 16:44:37 GMT -6
I have an easel and canvasses and paint. I used to be a painter. I dont use them though. I could probably go back to it without harming myself but I choose not to. I choose to sit in silence and sleep.
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Post by ashima on Nov 24, 2021 4:19:12 GMT -6
Harming yourself while painting?
You cutting yourself for blood when painting?
I will always say that blood used for painting is absolutely unsanitary.
I dont have the time to draw/paint.
Wish I did sometimes
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Post by mskied on Nov 24, 2021 5:00:55 GMT -6
Harming myself by agitating my illness from being creative. If I use my imagination I get sick, so I sit silently a lot of the time
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Post by ashima on Nov 24, 2021 18:23:38 GMT -6
But you listen to music. Does that ever inspire you? What about if you read something?
Idk. Sometimes images come to mind and I just do a quick sketch just to get it out. Doesnt go any further lol
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Post by mskied on Nov 24, 2021 21:10:19 GMT -6
I barely listen to music and I dont read. I dont do much.
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Post by mskied on Nov 30, 2021 17:21:41 GMT -6
I dont want you guys to think that my life is constant misery. I spend my day resting or playing video games, and I have a few friends that I play board games with. Its been a lot of surrender, and getting adjusted to a quiet life, which is hard, because Im constantly in disaster mode, thinking about our mortality and frailty. Id say that half my time I am in psychic pain but the other half Im ok. Things have been getting better.
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Post by ashima on Dec 1, 2021 7:29:00 GMT -6
Good to know. You definitely have made it come across like you are in complete misery.
Glad things seem better for you
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Post by Belteshazzar on Dec 7, 2021 14:16:35 GMT -6
I dont want you guys to think that my life is constant misery. I spend my day resting or playing video games, and I have a few friends that I play board games with. Its been a lot of surrender, and getting adjusted to a quiet life, which is hard, because Im constantly in disaster mode, thinking about our mortality and frailty. Id say that half my time I am in psychic pain but the other half Im ok. Things have been getting better. Good! Glad to hear it, man. Keep going. |
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Post by mskied on Dec 16, 2021 1:38:38 GMT -6
Im getting used to being alone. I dont see anyone most of the time, and when I do, Im only good for a couple hours before I need to go home and rest. Too much stimulation from conversation is unhealthy for me. I have to sit in the quiet. At first it was really hard but its gotten easier, I almost enjoy it now. Forced meditative mind isnt something I recommend, I suppose it was a lot like quarantine from covid for most people. Except I dont do anything at home, I dont read or watch tv or listen to music. I tell myself Im just waiting to die now, but Im not suicidal thank God. Suicidal states are painful. I live in this small apartment and walk about five feet from my bed to my computer to my bathroom. I wish I didnt feel this pain from ideas and imagination, but I do. I suppose some people would like to live this way, for me its the only way.
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Post by Odin on Dec 16, 2021 13:33:18 GMT -6
Im getting used to being alone. I dont see anyone most of the time, and when I do, Im only good for a couple hours before I need to go home and rest. Too much stimulation from conversation is unhealthy for me. I have to sit in the quiet. At first it was really hard but its gotten easier, I almost enjoy it now. Forced meditative mind isnt something I recommend, I suppose it was a lot like quarantine from covid for most people. Except I dont do anything at home, I dont read or watch tv or listen to music. I tell myself Im just waiting to die now, but Im not suicidal thank God. Suicidal states are painful. I live in this small apartment and walk about five feet from my bed to my computer to my bathroom. I wish I didnt feel this pain from ideas and imagination, but I do. I suppose some people would like to live this way, for me its the only way. Your endurance and long-suffering is a light to others. |
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